A Beauty Pageant - of Bestfriends and Late Nights

Stressed... Friday shift going saturday morning plus one client and then 7 pm event... all with just a little over 30 minutes of shut eye in between equals what people saw stalking the swanky Resorts World Halls on the way to watching the 2010 Mutya ng Pilipnas Pageant.

Stalking through resorts world sans sleep

So, it was me and my best friend... being invited by my partner Jim to one of his events usually means going alone since he's working through the whole time, enter dudes who was pretty much in the same near-comatose situation I am. Which means it was a miracle I got him to go with me at all, what with him being all so busy with work and all.

San ka, just a bit behind the judges

close ups please... make up by Jim Ryan

I had a bad feeling something was going to go wrong... long lines and missing tickets... surprisingly we ended (For us at least) up with very great seats, good thing my beau happened to be stressing over us not having tickets and the lovely Sarah Meier graciously gave us her extra tickets! Big Thanks Sarah!

So there we were, just a preview of the night... Everybody's probably showing the pictures of the winners but hey, I'm just talking about a really cool night with great people, some really cool stars... Oh and a beauty pageant held in Resorts world for the very first time.

More to come!

Weekends

Just a few things a I observed during weekends

- it's never enough
- you work twelve hours on your last day and your not tired or sleepy
- it's never enough
- the next 48 hours become a blur... like you're wacthing TV or surfing and you suddenly think..."Satuday, Sunday or Moday?"
-there's suddenly too many things to do and all of them contending with the overwhelming urge to just sleep the entire weekend away
- I'm scared of letting the entire weekend pass away just sleeping
- you fall asleep and it's the most blissful thing you've ever experienced - after the initial shock of falling asleep for a whole day
- it's never enough

Me on a weekend - minus the worry lines and stress signs... something I wish I could wear to work

But sometimes, in between waking hours and groggy moments you just have to realize that weekdays are just as important... they make weekends all the more special - maybe the one thing I console myself whenever I hear about friends and people in general taking a "break" from work.

Surviving Accountancy

My sister has recently graudated... Third sibling to graduate from my own De La Salle Dasmariñas...
I was very surprised at her choice, knowing that it was mostly hell to go through such a course. Historically, out of four sections, only half of one will eventually end up graudating.

Something her own batch proved as well.

What I was really thinking was she would have done immensely better if she chose a different field.

Why?

Because I happen to know that she inherited the most talent out
of all of us siblings.

So I was all for her choosing something like fine arts, or graphics design.

But despite her own self-described roller coaster ride... I am so PROUD!

Crossroads

In greek mythology, there was this story about a guy who was sworn to secrecy... about the king's ears being turned into a donkeys', his help being needed to disguise the ridicule it was sure to bring.

Unable to share the secret yet unable to keep it to himself he dug a hole in the ground and whispered the secret and later on covered up the hole he made.

Granted that at this day and age digging a hole in the ground in an urban setting is near impossible, not to mention downright ridiculous, I return to this place after nearly a year and one post later. Last year prompted me to find a way to channel myself such that I have a way of venting when there is no one to turn to.

Like now.

It's not that I have a devastating secret to keep, but I personally consider my own negative thoughts to be dangerous to both myself and others.

The past months have been pure hell as I stand in front of a personal crossroad.

left side - my work, career, corporate life that more than makes up a good percentage of my adult life - friends, family, connections and relations, pride in accomplishments, stability, security...

right side - the unknown, throwing everything away to the wind for the sake of what might be, what I also have always wanted to be, the things that I can't afford to do because of a 9-5 commitment.

left side - used to be everything I can boast of, stepping stone to the good life

right side - fun and satisfying, fulfilling to the self more than anyone else. but critically unstable

I want to try having some select conversations, who knows that maybe someone could talk me out of... or into the one thing I really need.